This card was sent to me by one of my gallery artists, and it is just the best thing I have ever seen. NOTHING could express how this whole thing feels as well as this picture does. The inside says “…but you WILL get through this.” and it’s true I will. (The card is published by Leanin’ Tree in case you want to try to find it).
This day (Easter) is one on which many people celebrate resurrection and rebirth. My brother suggested I plant some seeds (literally) and I may do that.
But I thought it might also be a good day to pop my head up and let you know I’m ok.
I’m not clever, creative, or energetic yet, but I am ok.
This blog is about sharing moments from an art-full life, and a life, art-full or otherwise, has its ups and downs. However, the downs have never been something I want to share, and therefore, silence has been a better option.
It has been 8 weeks today since the surgery, and I am coming along.
I can walk like Frankenstein without a cane and with some pain – and there has to be something close I can grab onto.
I can walk ok using a cane – do laps around the dining room table, kitchen table, etc. I have gotten out to local cafés a few times – as long as someone else drives me, and doesn’t mind that it takes such a long time to walk from the parking lot.
I feel like my hip & leg are healing as they should.
But, what I really need is a cane for my brain.
You know how I could never keep up with all the creative ideas? Not happening. No ideas. Remember my sense of humor? I’m glad you do. And I keep saying and doing really weird stuff – like putting clean dishes away in the freezer and grabbing a metal measuring cup instead of my coffee mug. Caught that one in time, thank heavens.
And naps, which I have never found necessary, are a major pastime now.
People say this is the left-over effect of the anesthesia. I had never had anesthesia before, so they may be right. Some people say this can last a year. I hope they are NOT right about that.
On a lighter note, as long as I don’t have to be too clever or write too much, I am going to start posting again whenever I have the energy.
Though I have not been able to create things, or spend any length of time at the computer, I have finally gotten a very fast internet signal installed, so I am able to upload high quality videos to YouTube.
My first order of business is to make my wonderful Love This Journal workshops available again. They disappeared when MobileMe disappeared because I had nowhere else to park the videos. Times have changed, and they can now live in private spaces on YouTube – and I can upload them quickly with my new wi-fi. So, stay tuned for the return of the workshops that got thousands of students excited about art journaling.
And . . . I am not unaware of the evolution and enlightenment available in an experience like this. When EVERYTHING is a SLOW and methodical project – like even taking a new shampoo bottle into the bathroom – you are forced into mindfulness as never before.
I know some of these lessons will remain, even after I fully recover.
Hope you all are well, and Happy Easter.